On a camping trip with a guy I used to think was super cute.

He’s still hella cute.

but.

I’m just not sexually attracted to him.

He’ll make cute ass kids someday.

I don’t understand these feelings. Especially for someone I can’t ever be with, let alone like…. love. But not, in that way. I feel safe.

isn’t that all that should matter?

but peaceful. I like just knowing youre on the other end.

I wish I could tell you exactly what I’m thinking.. 

like I used to be able to.

“I care about you more than I care about myself”

… thank you. ♥ 

If you only knew. 

the girl who contemplates suicide on her birthday.

- right here.

Yesterday was terrible.

Thank god for the one girlfriend you have that actually tries to help.

& somewhat succeeds. 

I’m actually feeling alright right now. I love my friends. I’m glad I’m not home right now. Its making my night not suck… however I wish he would text me. Ugh. I hope he’s. OK. I don’t need to wake up in the morning and read my bestfriends hurt or dead. Ahhhhh fuck. I really wish he wouldn’t do drugs so much. I wish he’d stick to pot. Night..

& I couldnt be any unhappier.